I know its been a while. I honestly have been really busy and not the most happy person lately. My little sister got married on March 14th. She made such a beautiful bride. And being able to be in the temple with her and share in that moment...well it brought tears to my eyes. My family is a bunch of cry babies, and my little niece is having a hard time figuring out when we cry is it a good cry or a sad cry. So we always have to tell her. The wedding festivities were very successful. She had another wedding reception up here, which also proved to be very successful. I was sick as a dog that night and didn't have the best time, and I wasn't in the best mood either. So I am sorry to my family and friends that I haven't seen in such a long time.
My sister Lynsie was up here and then my mom decided to go back to Las Vegas with her. So I had this crazy idea. We purchased my mom a beautiful new comforter set last year for her birthday, and it has been sitting in her corner for almost a year. She didn't want to put it on until her room was painted. So I called up my sisters and my brother and told them that I am going to paint mom's room as a surprise. So we did just that, and when my mom came home tonight to see it...well you can imagine she cried. And yes they were tears of joy.
Unfortuntely I celebrated another birthday, and I cried. And no these were not tears of joy.
In fact I have been crying alot, its been a really tough week for me. I have all these emotions running through me and recently someone really hurt me and made me really angry. Angry enough to punch my wall. I decided that its okay to be angry for a bit, I believe I am justified. I am fighting with my inner soul because being angry is not very Christ like.
So I believe that all tears can be tears of joy, I just need to take a step back on look at them from a different prospective.
Tears just have to be shed sometimes girly-angry tears, hurtful tears, happy tears, joyous tears. I totally give you permission to be angry for a while...and I'lljust pray that you can find some peace from it sooner then later! I know its rough but the Lord can help us through it!!! Love ya lots!
ReplyDeleteOh tears of joy and tears of sadness. My tears have been coming lots too lately. I'm sorry if you only cried on your birthday because I started it. Nice post though...I want to see a picture of mom's room. Love you lots. Now I need to post about Ash's wedding. What a loser I am.
ReplyDeleteYou are such a great girl. I hate seeing you have a hard time. I guess there are a lot of good times too. I hope things start looking up. I know from my own life that things never seem to go the way that we plan them.
ReplyDeleteI just love your guts, Amy.
ReplyDeleteThere must be something in the air, because this week has been brutal to me as well. Thanks for sharing this. And one of these days I'll have to tell you about the emotional breakdown I had at my birthday dinner last year. Now it's pretty funny. But then, it most certainly wasn't. Like you said, perspective is everything.